@hex@kolektiva.social2026-03-16 10:22:41
On the first day of the #PTSD intensive, we talked about the shooting. I had felt like I was done with that, that it didn't have anything left for me. But there was something still that filled me with rage... that is still confusing and enraging.
It wasn't actually being shot. I wasn't even the possibility of death. I had been prepared to die. I always knew that was possible. It was something else.
I remember Marc Hokoana's face as he pepper sprayed pacifists, smiling and taunting, joyfully hurting people who he knew were refusing to respond. I remember their flags, the kek flag, literally a Nazi battle flag replaced in 4chan colors with the clover 4chan logo instead of the swastika. How many people have been tortured, have died? How much suffering, that these people not only welcomed but celebrated, joyfully participated in.
The cruelty was the point. It was the plan, the plan he posted to Facebook, the same plan as they have always had, of torturing people until someone responds and then murdering them. Inflicting trauma, responding with overwhelming force, showing how "big and strong" they are because they can always escalate.
Try to stop someone from peppers praying people, they shoot you. Shoot back, like Michael Reinoehl, and they send a death squad for you. But we keep standing up, so they keep escalating to the slightest imagined infraction. Now they just murder you for being in a car, for filming at a protest, for existing.
The bar for what justifies murder or torture will continue to move lower until there is no one left, or until they can no longer escalate.
The feeling of helplessness is still not the biggest thing though. It's the joy with which they inflict this on us. That's it. That's the thing.
CW: gun violence, abuse dynamics
https://hexmhell.writeas.com/the-creature-ptss-5-day-1
@cdarwin@c.im2026-03-16 01:54:12
The entire machinery of online discourse around building and creating has been so thoroughly captured by entrepreneurial "logic"
that we've lost the language to describe what it feels like to simply make a thing that helps someone,
give it away, and move on with your life.
I've been feeling this for a while now, and I suspect a lot of folks who have the itch to build feel it too, even if they haven't articulated it.
@stefanlaser@social.tchncs.de2026-04-15 14:35:44
On the radio, I hear the German research foundation #DFG defend its recent move to allow #AI in project reviews, just with local setups, just for language clarity – lots of reservations.
I then listen to the most recent episode of Mél’s Data Fix podcast. An anonymous guest (🔥) talks about their daily…
@presseportal_pol_NDS@frawas.de2026-04-16 12:04:17
POL-HK: Soltau: E-Scooter-Fahrer unter Alkoholeinfluss; Bad Fallingbostel: Gefährlicher Eingriff in den Straßenverkehr - Zeugen gesucht! Heidekreis (ots) - 15.04.2026 / E-Scooter-Fahrer unter Alkoholeinfluss Soltau: Am Mittwochabend kontrollierten Einsatzkräfte der Polizeiinspektion Heidekreis gegen 21:10 Uhr einen 21-jährigen Mann aus Soltau, der mit seinem E-Scooter in der ...
@Yogi77@hessen.social2026-05-13 17:42:48
Wir waren gestern Abend in #Ingelheim im Kino. Im Rahmen der Filmauslese gab es Jim Jarmuschs „Father Mother Sister Brother“ zu sehen. Mir hat es gut gefallen. Die Karten konnten wir vorab mit #wero bezahlen. #filmnase
@simon_lucy@mastodon.social2026-06-13 22:45:19
#worldcup2026
Brazil failing to hold the ball, tackled and intercepted by a Moroccan player who seem a yard and a half faster.
@jake4480@c.im2026-05-08 15:18:29
Art from 'Aliens: Reapers' from 1991. This was a short 8 page no dialog comic story by John Arcudi and illustrated by Simon Bisley about 'Reapers' - an alien race that infiltrate Xenomorph hives to eat their eggs. My kinda alien race. 🍳
#Alien #SimonBisley
@inthehands@hachyderm.io2026-06-11 22:08:48
Wow, someone really went all out following those instructions in the previous post
https://masto.ai/@Nonilex/116733170691005492
@simon_brooke@mastodon.scot2026-05-13 12:01:29
"our energy systems are already massively in carbon debt. We cannot afford to borrow any more carbon from fossil reserves. To burn carbon now to build AGI on the vague hope that it may by some remote chance produce systems with more insight than we now have, at a time when our politicians are already failing to act on the very clear data being produced by their own scientists, it the purest folly"
#AGI
@cdarwin@c.im2026-06-10 14:09:27
Want a long and healthy life?
You might want to follow the example of Italy’s Emma Maria Mazzenga.
But following her won’t be easy.
Almost 93, Mazzenga may be the fastest female nonagenarian on Earth.
She holds the 90-to-94 age-group world records in the outdoor 200 meters and the 60, 200- and 400-meter indoor events.
At 92, she’s as fit as someone half her age
