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Autism spectrum, feelings and (against all odds) a Witcher quote
"""
[…] Because you're a witcher and you can't feel any emotion. You don't want to fulfill my request, because you think that you care about her, you think that… Geralt, you are with her only because she wants that, and you'll be with her for as long as she wants to. What you're feeling is a projection of her emotion, her interest in you. To all demons of the Pit, Geralt, you're not a child, you know who you are. You're a mutant. Don't misunderstand me, I'm not saying this to offend or disdain you. I'm just stating a fact. You're a mutant, and one of the basic features of your mutation is your full immunity to emotion. You've been made like this so that you could do your job. Do you understand? You can't feel anything. What you're taking as emotion is actually cell memory, somatic memory, if you know what that means.
"""
(Andrzej Sapkowski, Miecz przeznaczenia, Okruch lodu, Istredd's words, my own translation)
However the context is different, it made me think of my own problems with emotions.
Am I capable of love? Or perhaps I can merely project somebody else's feelings, return them at the best. Or perhaps just intellectually be aware of what I am supposed to feel.
Was perhaps that, what I used to take for "love", actually gratitude that somebody was nice to me, or that she showed interest?
Or perhaps was it that she fitted into an unrealistic model that I've engraved into my personality as a child?
Or just an attachment, a feeling of safety, stemming from a large data set. A conviction that unpleasant surprise is no longer that likely.
Or just desperation, a need that's been forced into me since I was a child and that now I'm trying to attain based on what the media, books and personal stories tell me about it.
Or even something resembling a Stockholm syndrome. "At least she's paying attention to me. I know the worst she could do to me."
#ActuallyAutistic

Dallas Cowboys sign second-round pick Marshawn Kneeland following minicamp https://www.yardbarker.com/nfl/articles/dallas_cowboys_sign_second_round_pick_marshawn_kneeland_following_minicamp/s1_17236_404…

Dallas Cowboys sign second-round pick Marshawn Kneeland following minicamp
The Dallas Cowboys sealed the deal on the last of the 2024 draftees this week, inking rookie Marshawn Kneeland to a four-year deal on Tuesday. Kneeland’s was the final signature the team needed after mandatory minicamp wrapped up last week. The other seven rookies signed their deals before rookie minicamp last month. Per Spotrac, Kneeland is expected to earn $6.79 million over his first four seasons, or just shy of $1.7 million per year. His deal comes with a signing bonus estimated at $1.75 …

Yesterday I received news that a close friend and her mother died in a fire, probably started by an electrical failure.
This made me check our smoke detector and CO sensor for the first time since we moved in in January. Both don't work.

This day six years ago was the last time I boarded an aircraft, on my way back home from Berlin Buzzwords. Today, I am instead flying through the German countryside on the night train to Stockholm.
Last year was the first time I had to sacrifice something to avoid air travel, when I couldn't make it to my friends 50th birthday party and also arrive in time for the conference. Other than that, I enjoy travel more than I did when I travelled by plane. I am looking forward to new carr…

Russ on joining Steelers: 'Revived in every way' https://www.espn.com/nfl/story/_/id/40329517/feel-revived-every-way

New Steelers QB Russell Wilson: 'I feel revived in every way' - ESPN
New Steelers quarterback Russell Wilson said Tuesday he felt rejuvenated following the team's first mandatory minicamp practice.

Decoding planetary surfaces by counting cracks
S. Silver, K. Reg\H{o}s, G. Domokos, D. J. Jerolmack
https://arxiv.org/abs/2406.07376 https://

Decoding planetary surfaces by counting cracks
Planets are often covered with thin cracked shells. From mud films to lithospheres of rock or ice, fracture networks form two-dimensional (2D) tessellations of convex polygons whose geometry encodes their genesis. Here we chart the geometry of 2D fracture mosaics across the solar system, and decode their formative conditions using a new dynamical crack model. We show that mosaics can be projected onto a Symbolic Ternary Diagram, where the relative proportions of ``T'', ``X'' and ``Y'' junctions…

This https://arxiv.org/abs/2404.19510 has been replaced.
initial toot: https://mastoxiv.page/@arXiv_hepe…

First observation of $Λ_{b}^{0} \rightarrow Σ_c^{(*)++} D^{(*)-} K^{-}$ decays
The four decays, $Λ_{b}^{0} \rightarrow Σ_c^{(*)++} D^{(*)-} K^{-}$, are observed for the first time using proton-proton collision data collected with the LHCb detector at a centre-of-mass energy of $13\,\rm{TeV}$, corresponding to an integrated luminosity of $6\,\rm{fb}^{-1}$. By considering the $Λ_b^0 \rightarrow Λ_c^{+} \overline{D}^0 K^{-}$ decay as reference channel, the following branching fraction ratios are measured to be, $$\frac{\cal{B} (Λ_{b}^{0} \rightarrow Σ_{c}^{++} \rm{D}…

Yesterday's evening hike... grand & far views, and looking much warmer than it was...
#LandscapePhotography #NaturePhotography #Photography

Macron, meilleur président de gauche ?
En un seul discours dimanche soir, il a :
- mis fin Š la réforme de l'assurance chômage
- flingué la fusion de l'audiovisuel public
- achevé la droite
- fédéré des partis de gauche incompatibles.
GROS BILAN
#politique

Obstructions to almost complex structures following Massey
Michael Albanese, Aleksandar Milivojevic
https://arxiv.org/abs/2406.05518 https://

Obstructions to almost complex structures following Massey
We provide proofs of two theorems stated by Massey in 1961, concerning the obstructions to finding complex structures on real vector bundles. In addition, we determine the second obstruction to a complex structure on a rank six orientable real vector bundle. The obstructions are fractional parts of integral Stiefel-Whitney classes, and a fourth of an appropriate combination of Pontryagin, Chern, and Euler classes.