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Autism spectrum, feelings and (against all odds) a Witcher quote
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[…] Because you're a witcher and you can't feel any emotion. You don't want to fulfill my request, because you think that you care about her, you think that… Geralt, you are with her only because she wants that, and you'll be with her for as long as she wants to. What you're feeling is a projection of her emotion, her interest in you. To all demons of the Pit, Geralt, you're not a child, you know who you are. You're a mutant. Don't misunderstand me, I'm not saying this to offend or disdain you. I'm just stating a fact. You're a mutant, and one of the basic features of your mutation is your full immunity to emotion. You've been made like this so that you could do your job. Do you understand? You can't feel anything. What you're taking as emotion is actually cell memory, somatic memory, if you know what that means.
"""
(Andrzej Sapkowski, Miecz przeznaczenia, Okruch lodu, Istredd's words, my own translation)
However the context is different, it made me think of my own problems with emotions.
Am I capable of love? Or perhaps I can merely project somebody else's feelings, return them at the best. Or perhaps just intellectually be aware of what I am supposed to feel.
Was perhaps that, what I used to take for "love", actually gratitude that somebody was nice to me, or that she showed interest?
Or perhaps was it that she fitted into an unrealistic model that I've engraved into my personality as a child?
Or just an attachment, a feeling of safety, stemming from a large data set. A conviction that unpleasant surprise is no longer that likely.
Or just desperation, a need that's been forced into me since I was a child and that now I'm trying to attain based on what the media, books and personal stories tell me about it.
Or even something resembling a Stockholm syndrome. "At least she's paying attention to me. I know the worst she could do to me."
#ActuallyAutistic

This is part of the iron-fisted control that pharmacies have over our meds - from denying you refills to denying you meds at all, something's gotta give
Pharmacy caused veteran's death by not giving meds: Lawsuit
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Pharmacy caused military vet's fatal heart attack by not filling his prescription: Lawsuit
The family of a 79-year-old military vet alleges in a lawsuit that a Texas-based grocery story chain and pharmacy caused a fatal heart attack because they refused to give him his blood thinner meds.

Filings: Michael Dell plans to sell 10M Dell shares worth $1.3B, after selling $1.6B in shares earlier in 2024; Dell sold $1.7B in 1999 before the bubble burst (Diana Li/Bloomberg)
https://www.bloomberg.com/news/articles/20

A global map of gullied hillslopes on Mars: #Mars ever has flowing water: https://skyandtelescope.org/astronomy-news/what-martian-gullies-mean-for-water-on-mars/ - now, a comprehensive study examines the question.

Its good to have many tests in your R package, but it can be a pain to debug some failing tests when it happens. {lazytest} for the rescue: only rerun the failing tests, until they pass: #RStats

Trying [[quote toot]] functionality in [[phanpy]] :)
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Dallas Cowboys sign second-round pick Marshawn Kneeland following minicamp https://www.yardbarker.com/nfl/articles/dallas_cowboys_sign_second_round_pick_marshawn_kneeland_following_minicamp/s1_17236_404…

Dallas Cowboys sign second-round pick Marshawn Kneeland following minicamp
The Dallas Cowboys sealed the deal on the last of the 2024 draftees this week, inking rookie Marshawn Kneeland to a four-year deal on Tuesday. Kneeland’s was the final signature the team needed after mandatory minicamp wrapped up last week. The other seven rookies signed their deals before rookie minicamp last month. Per Spotrac, Kneeland is expected to earn $6.79 million over his first four seasons, or just shy of $1.7 million per year. His deal comes with a signing bonus estimated at $1.75 …

The Ruble is falling, Gazprombank is apparently down and authorities in Russia are probably trying to avoid a bank run.
#Russia #gazprombank #bankrun

Starling Formation-Flying Optical Experiment: Initial Operations and Flight Results
Justin Kruger, Soon S. Hwang, Simone D'Amico
https://arxiv.org/abs/2406.06748

Starling Formation-Flying Optical Experiment: Initial Operations and Flight Results
This paper presents initial flight results for distributed optical angles-only navigation of a swarm of small spacecraft, conducted during the Starling Formation-Flying Optical Experiment (StarFOX). StarFOX is a core payload of the NASA Starling mission, which consists of four CubeSats launched in 2023. Prior angles-only flight demonstrations have only featured one observer and target and have relied upon a-priori target orbit knowledge for initialization, translational maneuvers to resolve tar…