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@mgorny@social.treehouse.systems
2026-03-06 20:03:09
Content warning: MH–

Throughout most of my life I've lost something maybe once. In the last two weeks, I've lost two things already. And to the point of not even being able to tell when they "disappeared" — I was convinced I have them on me until I've noticed they're gone. I feel like I was losing my mind.
It doesn't help that I was raised to feel guilty about my mistakes. It doesn't help that people around me take this lightly (it's nothing "important"), so I also feel guilty about feeling guilty. And completely estranged.
#ActuallyAutistic

@mgorny@social.treehouse.systems
2026-02-25 20:25:13

There are days when I feel more lonely than usual, and I wonder if that will ever change. The problem is, there's a whole lot of unusual things I need, probably due to a combination of being on the spectrum, with all the oversensitivity of the senses, rich imagination and the trauma from past relationships.
So right now my girlfriend couldn't smoke, support capitalism, use strong perfumes, wear noisy shoes, jewelry, piercings, makeup, long nails, long/thick eyelashes… and probably there would be more if I put my mind to it. And it's only clear that the list will get longer with more experiences…
#ActuallyAutistic

@katrinakatrinka@infosec.exchange
2026-03-22 15:10:33

RE: mastodon.gassner.io/@peter/116
"True barriers to autistic well-being are bullying and a lack of understanding and acceptance."

@mgorny@social.treehouse.systems
2026-02-18 08:20:05

Can Autism Spectrum be a superpower? Well, sometimes, I guess.
It's the same kind of superpower like having a chaingun in place of your hand. There are days you feel like you definitely ought to use it. And it sounds really cool in theory.
But it's not very useful if you need to open a jar. And I dare say that in my life, jar-opening situations are far more common than situations needing a chaingun. On top of that, most people don't really appreciate *you* having it, as if you had a choice.
#ActuallyAutistic

@mgorny@social.treehouse.systems
2026-02-11 12:46:41

You know what really sucks about being raised in Polish culture? You learn to always expect criticism and sarcasm.
Someone tells you a compliment? In the best case, you feel uneasy about it. In the worst, you start suspecting it was veiled sarcasm.
Once I've read here a suggestion to compliment strangers. I don't know if I'll ever be able to do that. I'd keep worrying that I may be misunderstood, either as being sarcastic or as expecting something.
#Poland #ActuallyAutistic