@hex@kolektiva.social2026-03-16 10:22:41
On the first day of the #PTSD intensive, we talked about the shooting. I had felt like I was done with that, that it didn't have anything left for me. But there was something still that filled me with rage... that is still confusing and enraging.
It wasn't actually being shot. I wasn't even the possibility of death. I had been prepared to die. I always knew that was possible. It was something else.
I remember Marc Hokoana's face as he pepper sprayed pacifists, smiling and taunting, joyfully hurting people who he knew were refusing to respond. I remember their flags, the kek flag, literally a Nazi battle flag replaced in 4chan colors with the clover 4chan logo instead of the swastika. How many people have been tortured, have died? How much suffering, that these people not only welcomed but celebrated, joyfully participated in.
The cruelty was the point. It was the plan, the plan he posted to Facebook, the same plan as they have always had, of torturing people until someone responds and then murdering them. Inflicting trauma, responding with overwhelming force, showing how "big and strong" they are because they can always escalate.
Try to stop someone from peppers praying people, they shoot you. Shoot back, like Michael Reinoehl, and they send a death squad for you. But we keep standing up, so they keep escalating to the slightest imagined infraction. Now they just murder you for being in a car, for filming at a protest, for existing.
The bar for what justifies murder or torture will continue to move lower until there is no one left, or until they can no longer escalate.
The feeling of helplessness is still not the biggest thing though. It's the joy with which they inflict this on us. That's it. That's the thing.
CW: gun violence, abuse dynamics
https://hexmhell.writeas.com/the-creature-ptss-5-day-1
@cdarwin@c.im2026-02-17 03:54:13
Thirty-six horses were killed in a barn fire in North Carolina on Sunday afternoon.
The blaze broke out around 12:45 p.m. at the Callicutt Stables on Highway 220 Alternate in Randolph County, multiple fire departments said.
By the time firefighters got to the stable, the 15,000-square-foot barn was already engulfed in flames.
Several fire departments were called in to battle the blaze.
Crews were at the stable for five hours on Sunday.
Despite firefighters’ effor…
@thomasfuchs@hachyderm.io2026-03-17 04:21:20
Pardon the everything app screenshot but the self-immolation of Andreessen is a sight to behold
He got so upset that people call him out for his “I don’t have feelings” tweet that he is storm-posting about how he is not bothered and definitely has no feelings or any inner self
@kurtsh@mastodon.social2026-03-17 05:16:00
Attention Browncoats: SHARE THIS VIDEO.
As Nathan says, they need the viewing metrics to push the Firefly animated series forward!
https://www.instagram.com/reel/DV6Js56jT3F/?igsh=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==
@Mediagazer@mstdn.social2026-03-16 18:50:40
Filing: Paramount president Jeff Shell says the allegation that he leaked corporate info is an "utterly false tale" created by a "fixer" who sued him for $150M (Todd Spangler/Variety)
https://variety.com/2026/tv/news/param
@Techmeme@techhub.social2026-03-17 05:01:47
Nvidia says game developers have full "artistic control over DLSS 5's effects", following backlash alleging that the AI upscaling tech altered source material (Tyler Wilde/PC Gamer)
https://www.pcgamer.com/soft…
@thomasfuchs@hachyderm.io2026-02-17 13:48:44
Didn’t think I need to boycott Sam Battle (following him for nearly a decade) but here we are.
I have a small glimmer of hope that he might use the platform he has been given for something good, but who knows. ¯\_(ツ)_/¯
@cdarwin@c.im2026-03-14 18:48:10
There are some changes for the 2026 tax filing season that people who are 65 years of age and older should be aware of.
The most recent being the enhanced deduction for seniors
https://www.irs.gov/newsroom/2026-filing-season-updates-and-resources-for-…
@cdarwin@c.im2026-04-16 20:08:01
Sen. Chuck Grassley (R-Iowa) told White House budget director Russel Vought that
lawmakers “are not getting any answers”
as to why hundreds of millions of dollars isn’t flowing to states
for anti-poverty programs.
Senators from both parties chided the Trump administration Thursday for continuing to withhold funding Congress has approved, -- more than a year after the White House first froze billions of dollars for temporary “review.”
During White House budget di…
@cdarwin@c.im2026-03-16 01:54:12
The entire machinery of online discourse around building and creating has been so thoroughly captured by entrepreneurial "logic"
that we've lost the language to describe what it feels like to simply make a thing that helps someone,
give it away, and move on with your life.
I've been feeling this for a while now, and I suspect a lot of folks who have the itch to build feel it too, even if they haven't articulated it.
