I need you to think about how bias happens in the real world.
Like the banality of evil, bias isn't often perpetrated by monsters, rather by well meaning people who think they're being fair and thoughtful and doing their best — and they (you! us!), we ARE doing our best, but I need you to understand that doing our best isn't good enough to identify, understand, prevent, nor heal all harm.
Data center water use is a really interesting question. It seems like a space with a lot of room for technological improvement, where we've simply been optimizing for the wrong thing so far: we've been minimizing energy use, but there are a lot of opportunities for being more careful about water consumption.
I don't think much of this is down to "AI" specifically. If we outlawed all NNs bigger than 1B, I don't think the number of data centers would stop growin…
now that we have all collectively seen and acknowledged palantir fuel the efforts of the fascist US regime,
can we also collectively get rid of people who think even criticizing palantir is worthy of exclusion?
(yes, i'm looking at you, guy who was proud to shake dtolnay's hand and told us all about it. you're a part of the problem! you know who you are)
Just finished reading Dream State by Eric Puchner, and it kind of pissed me off. I think I can see exactly why it might be popular with a certain WASPy liberal "literati" type that probably includes a lot of influential reviewers, but to me, it's points about love & life, despite being much more complex, ring just about as hollow (and harmful) as a Disney movie.
I've got a lot of quibbles, but I think most galling to me was a throwaway line near the beginning about why platonic relationships get so much less glory in media than romantic ones, when so much of the plot proceeds to revolve around a stale agency-free romantic attraction model that's certainly more complex on its face than a Disney romance but which is ultimately just as misleading.
Go read Loveless or really any YA #OwnVoices romance (especially queer) and you'll be learning more & better lessons about the human condition.
A friend of mine just retired after 28 years as a teacher… I’ve been working for 31 years since I got out of school and probably have another 10 to 15 (or more) years before I can even think about retirement.
(I’m not jealous, I just wish we had a better system where people didn’t have to work their entire adult lives.)
@… @… I think it’s possible if I want to screw about but it’s unsupported and I currently run this Mastodon instance on it, so I don’t want to take it down for some indeterminate period of time.
When my Zima arrives I’ll migrate eve…
Tell me what you think about this low-fat diet shampoo: do you think it's
Folks designing digital experiences: think about how this can translate to what you’re making.
#design #accessibility #a11y
The more time goes on, the more conflicted I get about #AI. (or, more specifically, generative AI. I like causal AI a fair bit)
On one hand, I hate so much about it:
the needless environmental and electronic parts waste, the impact on labor, the monopolistic nature of main organizations driving it, the endless conversations about AGI and other absurdly utopian (or dystopian) futures, the widespread theft of IP and human work, the devaluation of labor and craft… so much of it is not okay at all.
On the other hand, I kinda get it?
I like to test software for myself, so I've been dipping my toes into some popular AI tools over the past couple of years. I have a paid subscription to ChatGPT (which I don’t feel great about, I know), and I have found genuine utility in it.
More so, I feel so conflicted when I talk to people I respect and who I think are very smart and creative and they tell me how in love they are with all of these AI tools, about the complex workflows they build, about their experiments with agentic AI and integrations... These people seem so excited, so alive, so joyous about the things that this technology allows them to do. They often wouldn't have had the skills / knowledge / financial capital to do some of those things with human efforts alone. And now I see them coding their own tools, doing complex data analysis, trying creative experiments with graphics / text / video...
And I feel like a total jerk going "BUT ACTUALLY THIS IS UNETHICAL AND INEFFICIENT AND YOU SHOULD STOP IT BECAUSE AI SUCKS".
The technology behind all these gen AI models does have real utility, and it has kicked off a lot of creativity from people who wouldn't have dabbled in those kinds of projects otherwise.
So I don't know how to feel. Because I can't let go of the guilt and the real problems and the awareness of how much empty hype there is.
#technology #artificialintelligence #genAI #ChatGPT
(Bicycle) Speed and safety
For years I've heard people talking about how motor-assisted bicycles "are safer" because they can "match traffic speed", but I think this is mistaken. Here's three reasons why. For me the most compelling reason comes from a 2007 paper by Laurie F. Beck, Ann M. Dellinger, and Mary E. O’Neil in the American Journal of Epidemiology, "Motor Vehicle Crash Injury Rates by Mode of Travel, United States: Using Exposure-Based Methods…
There has long been a quiet debate, currently drowned out but still very much happening, about human replacement vs human augmentation. Think of Gary Kasparov remarking years ago that he thought chess played by humans with computer assistance could be a far more interesting game than either human-only or computer-only chess.
Here’s an argument for augmentation over automation, and note how far it diverges from the current hype despite it being written from a very AI-friendly point of view:
https://digitaleconomy.stanford.edu/news/the-turing-trap-the-promise-peril-of-human-like-artificial-intelligence/
This is about racist Fat Nixon "Making America White Again", not 'immigration' policy.
Asians Americans: If you think this is about illegal immigration... wait 'til they come for us.
☑️ Fact-checking Over 12,000 of Trump’s Quotes About Immigrants
https://www.
“Discord just made an announcement…” where’s an official link then?
“Feel free to copy and paste to other servers.”
No, I do not think I will.
I’ve already seen this song and dance before. Last time it was about VRChat rippers and crashers supposedly planning to do mass raids on a particular day. So far as I have experienced and heard, nothing came of it.
I don’t appreciate the unverified @everyone spam.
"The process of coding with an “agentic” LLM appears to be the process of carefully distilling all the worst parts of code review, and removing and discarding all of its benefits."
Very insightful post on #GenAI by Glyph
(Original title: I Think I’m Done Thinking About genAI For Now)
How to Talk to Loved Ones About #Psychedelics
Do you think it's time for mom to #trip? Here's how to start the conversation.
My dad knew about bugs.
He taught us to be curious about the mundane, to be adaptable and resilient, to be confident in the might of the small.
On this Father's Day, I think I may have located the first of his academic articles from 1962. 🤍
https://www.sciencedirect.com…
To dig slightly deeper here, I think that there's a feedback loop between "fall in love/wait for your perfect match (and by the way girls the only career you should aspire to is the literally unattainable 'princess'" Disney stuff and this "my characters are complex I'm so sophisticated; they suffer but it's not intolerable and their lives are good enough despite the imperfections" crap that gets praised as so evocative of the human condition. In fact, I think it merely evokes the condition of its authors & fans who were poisoned by the Disney in their youth and who have remained bad as relationships ever since, though this is not exactly their fault. In any case, their white middle-aged wisdom-shaped-but-quite bitter and intricately-constructed-so-it's-hard-to-see-the-really-untrue-character-facets work ends up keeping their audience within the "romance is luck" cult by way of reassuring them that a middling romance with lots of doubt and complications is "just life" even though the author doesn't actually have any broader perspective on what life is than anyone else.
This has turned into a bit of a rant, but I think I'll just add that reading Mama by Nikkya Hargrove just before Dream State helped immensely to see how the distant & awkward parent-child relationships of the latter are not a product of human nature but instead of white western culture & capitalism.
(The defeatism about climate change is a whole nother dimension of wrong about Dream State, by that's a separate rant.)
I think we should resume paying smart people to think about making computers better, instead of having them think about how to reliably serve ads
Live coding tiktoks are passing 1M views, live code sharing platforms hit by griefers and spammers, community struggling to onboard the influx, continually hit by frequently asked questions about integrating with commercial DAWs and LLMs.. I think the next hype wave is incoming
In this post "Consent-Based Computing", I think Heidi Waterhouse is articulating some my own feelings, reflections and choices about the tools around us today and the tradeoffs I'm prepared to make. #linkTuesday
Trying not marinate in bad news all the time . . . but for those of you feeling a little crazy, you're not. Things are bad. I'm keeping this site updated as best as I can in between life stuff. If you have any time to spare, think about what you can do.
https://stateofourunion.com/report-card
I think about this a lot.
It's really great how society has decided that philosophy and introspection are actually worthless and it's better to not think about anything except for consuming and producing wealth for people above you
“Read what Jeff Greenfield thinks Bill Buckley would think about Donald Trump” is a headline worthy of Matt Groening.
Or a LLM parlor trick…
(It’s Politico. Greenfield lives, who knew???)
Wow, this blog post describes exactly what's in my mind these days. Actually, I prepared a presentation a few days ago, for an event I'll participate to in 10 days, that says about the same
https://blog.glyph.im/2025/06/i-think-im-done-think…
Starting to think about GPU acceleration of protocol decodes (rather than just basic math blocks) in ngscopeclient.
Here's the filter graph I'm thinking of using as a benchmark: dual lane QSGMII, 20M points per channel.
The filter graph takes 944 ms end to end to run on my box (2x Xeon 6144 2080 Ti).
Major time consumers:
* Eye pattern (~345 ms)
* QSGMII (~337 ms)
* CDR PLL (~310 ms)
* 8B10B (~160 ms)
* SGMII (~120 ms)
Note that the …
When I say that I wish the bubble would burst so we could start having actual conversation, this is the kind of thing I’m talking about.
In the meantime, not being a researcher myself in any kind of position to critique the paper, I’m happy to just look at it and cherry-pick the conclusion that I think is unequivocally helpful regardless: we all (students in school, students of life) should cultivate active, engaged minds that work with ideas by •doing• and •creating• instead of simply passively receiving.
Working on a kanban-ish board to track the different kinds of content in my PL book and course as I think about a rewrite, and I can see why … I need a board. (Not sure it's helping!)
So the assassin in Minnesota was a wearing a police uniform and had a police car. Think about it...
#minnesota #killings #lawmakers
Thinking about a point that a few folks have made in the replies that “verifying humanity” reads as exclusionary or ableist. Huh — that’s caught me off guard so I will have to think on it for a bit — but I see the truth in it.
https://fediverse.zachleat.com/@zachleat/1…
Leaders We Deserve
invests in candidates who reflect our generation and its values
matching them with the resources they need to run strong campaigns,
win, and change the face of power.
Think EMILYs List for young, progressive courageous candidates.
Leaders We Deserve invests in young people, knocks down these barriers, and elects more young people to office.
It’s time for something new. So: what do you think I should do next? I want to be of service. https://anildash.com/2025/06/11/time-for-something-new/
Chiltern Off-grid Festival talk today with Donna M Cameron, after a late night round the fire with David Holmgren and Su Dennett , and we had such a hard time sticking to time! So much to discuss and such a good conversation. Thank you to all the wonderful people who took part in it. Really (sincerely) want to know what you think about '470'. #clifi
Lol, extended family Ukrainians.
"Why are you wearing a mask?"
"Air pollution."
"Ah, tsk. Just try not to think about it."
Calamus 32 What think you...
A funny gotcha of a poem: Whitman starts by suggesting he is going to write about battleships, or cities, or "splendors". But then he switches gears:
two simple men I saw to-day ... parting the parting of dear friends
And then goes into fully romantic
The one to remain hung on the other's neck, and passionately kissed him,
While the one to depart, tightly prest the one to remain in his arms.
Hot, right? A passionate kiss, a tight embrace, never wanting to let go.
Again I am astonished that a poem this gay would be published in 1860. Or that generations of bloodless scholars would sputter and say "they were just pals".
I’m currently playing Jedi Outcast on the #NintendoSwitch
I played it when I was around 15 I think so about 20 years ago.
It is still a lot of fun and I love the fact that there is no auto healing but you have to hunt for medi packs.
However I could do with a bit more auto aim.
My controller skills are still very poor.
Over the last months, I have been listening to a bunch of podcasts that were basically interviews with people from the public sector who were talking about how the sausage is made in government - today, for example, there were two people from a think tank talking about how they lobbied the government for a specific policy around the use of the strategic petroleum reserve in the US. This kind of stuff is oddly appealing to me - I would love to listen to something like that from a german /
Reading an article about big tech being “customer zero” for AI, I can’t help but think of this Simpsons episode.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=3CXhRjkgLUQ
Now @… is announced by @… and he'll talk about @….
Personally I think that we can be grateful…
I'm not shocked that Musk would try to manipulate Grok to vent his opinions. We've seen his manipulation before in the twitter recommender system.
I am kind of fascinated by how difficult it is. I think that broadly trained LLMs tend to converge to the same "worldview", which is mostly left-libertarian.
You can't really force them away from this on one issue without introducing inconsistencies, and breaking the guardrails.
I was never one for noting the pagecounts of books. My measurements were usually "about one third done". Doing ebooks means that I think of a progress as percentages and length in hours.
For most of this year I read books that were over 25 hours long and am now in the three hour range.
Of course this is distorted. Reading during the day is usually quicker and if I fall asleep before turning off the e-reader (which happens a lot) the estimates get thrown off by the idle …
"What I'm optimizing for isn't growth... reach, or influence. I'm chasing connection[...]spending my days on things that bring me alive."
"It's about...signals that something genuinely MATTERED to one or more humans...private replies saying they've never felt so seen or understood." Rob Hardy
To fellow #writers
"So let’s get one thing out of the way: I think “AI literacy” is a dangerous device of neoliberal education and it deserves to be dismissed out of hand."
"Using AI is not about communicating. It’s about avoiding communicating. It’s about not reading, not writing, not drawing, not seeing. It’s about ceding our powers of expression and comprehension to digital apps that will cushion us from fully participating in our own lives."
"But Wall Street professionals, like so many other ostensibly smart people, refused to see Trump clearly, mistaking his skill as a demagogue for wisdom as a policymaker. “I don’t think this was foreseeable,” a mournful Ackman posted on X on Monday. “I assumed economic rationality would be paramount.” What an odd assumption to make about a man who bankrupted casinos.
Berezin thinks Wall Street still hasn’t come to terms with the cost of the nascent Trump presidency. “I do think that at this point we might have passed the event horizon, meaning that even if Trump backs off from the tariffs, there’s been enough damage done to the U.S. economy, to the global economy, to investor confidence, consumer confidence, that we’re probably going to see a recession regardless of what happens,” he said.""
#GiftArticle #USPolitics
https://www.nytimes.com/2025/04/07/opinion/trump-stock-market-wall-street.html?unlocked_article_code=1.-E4.q7Gk.5YS3EpoLnh8C&smid=url-share
It’s really about time for #RTJ5, don’t you think?
👉🏻🤛🏿
An interview with Gaia Marcus, director of the UK-based think tank Ada Lovelace Institute, on AI regulation in the UK and Europe, AI safety, bias, and more (Melissa Heikkilä/Financial Times)
I like to think EVERYONE knows Clark Kent’s secret, but they leave him be because they see him as a net good.
I also like to think everyone knows about #Batman, that Bruce Wayne hides behind #trusts and #philanthropy
I think strong and weak typing in programming languages is actually a spectrum rather than a binary classification.
See terraform for example:
> All values have a type, which dictates where that value can be used and what transformations can be applied to it.
https://developer.hashicorp…
"Cardinal George of Chicago, of happy memory, was one of my great mentors, and he said: ‘Look, until America goes into political decline, there won’t be an American pope.’ And his point was, if America is kind of running the world politically, culturally, economically, they don’t want America running the world religiously. So, I think there’s some truth to that, that we’re such a superpower and so dominant, they don’t wanna give us, also, control over the church."
Today, I boosted a post about breakups. When I boosted, I had misread it as "backups". In case anyone's confused about the boost. Hope everyone has a great and amazing day. (I'm not unboosting, I think that'd just increase confusion)
Ended up using a probability game mechanic again today and thought I might explain it here in case other #GameDev folks might find it useful. The basic problem it solves is when you want a percentage probability to be influenced by both beneficial and detrimental stats/effects, and you want these to balance against each other without the system easily tipping too far in either direction. Think about crit chance for example, and how many games have either lopsided systems where it's easy to max out at 100% or really opaque systems to try to balance things somehow. The system I'm about to describe has a nice intuitive explanation, but also permits positive & negative modifiers to balance out naturally (though it may not work well for every situation).
"All the tech oligarchs and business titans who’ve thrown in with Trump, apparently deciding that strongman politics are good for business, should think carefully about that post; in it, you can see the transition to a new kind of American regime.""
'Think carefully': How a single Trump threat should have cronies panicking - Raw Story
https://www.rawstory.com/trump-musk-2672324238/?cx_testId=4&cx_testVariant=cx_undefined&cx_artPos=1&cx_experienceId=EXC93HV4HK4I&cx_experienceActionId=showRecommendationsJ2A0SJUMQX4T24#cxrecs_s
Good morning Fedi! This isn't my usual posting material but I've been eating a lot more salad recently and really liking it, there are these really tasty premade kits you can get at stores where you just pour in the dressing and mix it around. This is the most exciting thing I could think to post about. I think I need to start doing more stuff.
Good morning Fedi! This isn't my usual posting material but I've been eating a lot more salad recently and really liking it, there are these really tasty premade kits you can get at stores where you just pour in the dressing and mix it around. This is the most exciting thing I could think to post about. I think I need to start doing more stuff.
Anytime someone says, "AI is here to stay, nothing we can do about it," I think, there's a person who is not doing the big, deep work of climate action.
If they think we can't do anything about an overtly exploitative and corrosive technology that has only just emerged in the last few years, then they couldn't conceive of the major shifts the rest of us have been and are doing.
I hope the generals who let this happen go home and think about what they’ve done.
Für die breite Verwendung von #KI, speziell im Kontext #Schule, muss sichergestellt sein, dass #LLMs user:innen nicht zu selbstgefährdendem Verhalten animieren.
Das Nonprofit Transluce arbeitet an verschie…
Only the combination/simultaneous arrival of both drones and ballistic missiles will have any chance to break through Israel's missile defenses i would think. Unless Iran has some new smart technology up it's sleeve. Those Shahed drones alone are not that effective anymore. What i should worry about as Israel is more assymetric attacks/warfare in the world.
#iran
Folks, when you think about a legit hacker who has testified in front of Congress a lot who is also respected, who do you think has done it the most? Like, in front of the US House or Senate at least several times?
It's wild to think people actually get their main news from Fox News. The stock market collapsed again today and you'd never know it from all the news stories about DEI, trans stuff, Dems supposedly being boo'd, etc. Incredibly, it is owned by the same company as the WSJ. Fox is news for morons.
Let me think about what really radicalized me. I’m autistic, so I forget things fast. I need to dig into my brain and find that quirky, weird thing or topic that made me feel radical years ago.
It might be something I hyperfocused on or a strange idea that stuck with me for a long time. I’ll try to find it and figure out what pushed me to where I am now.
I’ll post it when I find it. Sometimes it takes me a bit to dig through all the thoughts and memories in my brain, especially w…
I am trying out just boosting some posts that I think are excellent. I have become increasingly bothered by "liking" posts that make me angry or that disgust me in one way or another. So many of the things that I read about Trump and his sycophants disgust me, and while I think that others should see these posts, I always get ticked off when I click the like button so I'm going to try just boosting things and see how I feel about that!
But, they were evil. Even if you happen to be descended from them. They did a definitively evil thing, and it was a defining choice of their lives. Everyone knew that the war was about continuing and entrenching slavery. More than any modern war, it was feasible for conscripts to escape service, either by paying or by running west.
I guarantee that every person reading this has some evil ancestor.
Get over yourself, JD.
i'm eternally confused about people replying to me here to the extent of "dual-use tools are not inherently bad"
yes. i am acutely aware. i don't think i've ever said anything to dispute it?
whenever i hear people talk about ETSI i have to think - thanks to @… and john young - of this US Air Force intelligence lieutenant, who was heading the ETSI "lawful" interception working group in the late 2000s. the E in ETSI stands for European.
If you think AI is more about human flourishing than advertising, just look at Zuckerberg's latest earnings call: "AI will make advertising a meaningfully larger share of global GDP than it is today"
https://finance.yahoo.com/news/the-ai-
Calamus 31 What ship, puzzled at sea
Just when I'm beginning to think I have some facility reading Whitman I meet a head-scratcher like this. Taken literally this is a poem about Whitman offering to guide a boat at sea, or to offer military troops to a besieged city.
But presumably it's a metaphor. Whitman offering to guide and help those in need. It's a little strange?
Hard-pressed for a gay reading here but I'll focus on this:
Here, sailor! Here, ship! take aboard the most perfect pilot.
Here Whitman is offering himself to a sailor, naming himself the most perfect pilot. I could imagine that being a metaphor of sexual mentorship. But honestly that's a stretch.
I think this will do nicely.
Folks were complaining about how long the AC RMS amplitude measurement in ngscopeclient took on large datasets, so I made it 67 times faster (as long as your GPU supports GL_ARB_gpu_shader_int64)
Benchmark: 50M point sinusoid, Xeon 6144 vs RTX 2080 Ti
@… @… Only one way to find out.
So, about that bug bounty… I think you have a case.
This morning’s #QConLondon keynote is John O’Hara; he’s supposed to be talking about AMQP but he’s actually telling us why standards are vital to our industry and I think my heart might burst. So delighted to see this content on this stage (also a great speaker)
With so much hype and recent articles on "AI for coding" and how everyone not doing it is dumb maybe this is a good time to relink my article on "Vibe Coding".
Which I think focuses purely on "output" when developing or creating something is not just about the output.
https://tan…
@… thanks for testing! fair point about overscroll, I don’t think there is an `overscroll-behavior` value that makes sense for the component to add though — this seems more like an app-level option
An interview with Mario Kart World producer Kosuke Yabuki on balancing chaos and accessibility, redesigning core mechanics, and more, ahead of its June 5 launch (Christopher Cruz/Rolling Stone)
https://www.rollingstone.com/culture/rs-ga
Hot take about #StarWars #Andor:
1️⃣ It requires the viewer to pay attn to, remember & think about the story's subplots & not be an ADHD idiot
2️⃣ It makes the narrative familiar but also takes it very seriously
3️⃣ It uses the SW universe exclusively to tell a story, not t…
US political contradictions; knowledge systems
As Trump at least partially succeeds in constructing an alternate reality for his most ardent followers, it's tempting to think of his dogma as false, in contrast to some imagined "truth" which his non-followers are smart enough to believe in. But a more nuanced view of knowledge would admit that different groups of people have different shared truths, constituting different knowledge systems which each deviate from what's objectively measurable in different ways, and in fact they each accept different standards of what is objective, so there's not really a single "ground truth" we can even compare to to determine which of these knowledge systems is "more correct" (similar problems arise even if we only care about "more useful").
To make this more concrete, we can see that e.g., competing quantum physics theories, or likewise competing religious beliefs, have no reasonable basis on which to judge between them, either in terms of "truth" or "utility." So the Trump-dogma knowledge system, although bad, morally repugnant, etc., can't so easily be dismissed as "false" in my view. "Distorted" or "malignant" or "evil" or "contradictory" are better monikers, in my opinion.
But what I'm even more interested in thinking about is: in what ways does the current American liberal "common sense" knowledge system already bear the scars of past fascist lies & contradictions? I can think of a few:
"Columbus was an explorer."
This is "factually accurate" in the same way some of Trump's propaganda is, but it's also a cruel distortion of "Columbus was a child murderer," and it's a misrepresentation that serves an evil purpose, yet which is widely taught in elementary schools today.
Another: "dropping atomic bombs on civilians in Japan was necessary to end WWII."
Perhaps in the future we'll have "family separation & the 2025 ICE crackdowns were necessary to end the immigration crisis," although I dearly hope not.
"Reparations for slavery aren't reasonable," is yet another...
I'll close this rambling with a question: what other fascist lies have you noticed that are normalized in America right now from past Trump-like leaders (or even from less overtly fascist institutions)?
If you think through in more detail about operation Spiderweb’s drone attack on Russia. Extreme vulnerabilities are evident for Russia but also for any european country or military. Remember that Ukraine used local (!) phone networks for guidance, with pilots remotely in Ukraine apparently.
#ukraine #drones
Calamus 20 I saw in Louisiana a live-oak growing
What a heartaching poem of loneliness and the need for the love of another! Just wonderful. I understand now why this poem is so popular, particularly as a gay poem. It is full of meaning and is quite clear about it.
I wondered how it could utter joyous leaves, standing alone there, without its friend, its lover near—for I knew I could not
There's a more cerebral interpretation of this work, particularly if you understand "leaves" to mean "pages in my poetry book Leaves of Grass". Whitman talking about his own poetic inspiration from lovers.
Which well enough. But I'm more interested in Whitman's expressed need for "manly love". Which is clearly on his mind constantly:
my own dear friends ... I believe lately I think of little else than of them
Also Whitman's own eroticization of nature and himself. Here speaking of the tree,
its look, rude, unbending, lusty, made me think of myself
Everybody complaining about getting hammered with #AI traffic seems to think that these are crawlers scraping for training data.
How likely is it that this is a complete misconception and this is all inference time?
Most public companies give their cralwers and RAG agents different user agent strings. But what about security services trawling through their data?
There’s exactly 1 narrow way that it’s true. Before widespread #WFH, attackers often had an insurmountable barrier: no way into the business network from the Internet. At the last gig (2008) where I had to visit a “workplace” regularly, inbound remote access was officially non-existent & outbound Internet access all went through restrictive web proxies.
Been thinking about getting a proper family computer, something more than the kids’ Chromebook and my wife’s old dying MacBook. A Mac Mini should be sufficient, right?
I think I need to pull the trigger before prices get adjusted for tariffs
Calamus 15 O drops of me!
It's a remarkably morbid poem for Whitman, literally about blood dropping from wounds, corrupting his poetry.
stain every song I sing, every word I say, bloody drops
But he turns this blood into a sort of virtue that infuses his poem, starting with an inversion. It's not "saturate yourself with the drops". Instead it's saturate them with yourself.
Saturate them with yourself, all ashamed and wet,
Glow upon all I have written or shall write, bleeding drops,
Let it all be seen in your light, blushing drops.
I can make a case for a queer reading of recognizing gay shame and overcoming it. To take the stigma of homosexuality and turn it into a virtue, "let it all be seen in your light".
But I think I may be out on a limb with that interpretation. Whitman's not typically a writer about shame. And I think "gay shame" doesn't apply well as a concept in the 1850s, that's a malady that comes with a backlash against modern gay identity.